i don't want this world to become like that.
maybe there are alot of things that are too guo4fen4 already.

u have to know that making someone feel so hurt and cut, making someone feel so lost and woundedd hurts. it hurts seriously, it hurts alot.

u don't do things to do limit. cos when you hit the high point of limit, u lose and can't turn back. u don't face this reality like that. cos reality is like some point of temperature, making u rot and die. :(

i don't think u all understand wad i'm doodling about.

cos i've started to get a grip on life, then i read something and i shun life.

it hurts, it does, seriously.

have you ever felt like that?

it's got nothing really to feeling goth. but its like chemical reaction. its hard to say it. thats y i don't even think a single one of u understands what i'm trying to get at do you?

i've been meaning every word i've written but u all don't get it.

enough of the shit u throw.
enough of being the bystander.
enough of the hurt and pain.


u don't get it.
u all don't get it.
u don't get me!

i'm trying to speak out.
yet i'm afraid of speaking out.

because of some theories being thrown fullfront in my face. i can't speak out. i can' voice.


i want this station for myself.
where i can yell wadvr i want to the world.


i don't want to lie underneath the blanket of dead roses forever.


i'm jealous yeahh,
and so?

never seen someone turning green?
i guess you've never.

i'm turning from turquoise to lime.


i realise the spang of hurt