i dont know what to say, i dont know what to do.
your words are killing me because i dont know what's going on.
living on is like a misery itself.
glad i got my choristers and family by my side.

sometimes i really feel like backing out, of everything.
i want to close my eyes, and never open them the next day.
i want to fall asleep and never get out of my bed.
singing with my choristers forever, or mixing with my family,
everyday ... in my dreams.
then i dont have to face the horrifying reality =X

hahah, i'm wishing everything would just go away.
i dont want to think anymore.
i want to .. i want to .. die? LOL. hahah, stupid me.

i'm like the worst person living on this earth ..
so why should i even live on :/ damnedit.
i'm feeling so down.